I am so blessed. Not a day goes by that I am not reminded how gracious God has been to me. Earlier tonight I got a phone call requesting that I come into work for a few hours. There had been a rash of relapses and leaving against clinical advice at the treatment center. Some of the ex-clients have been trying to get those still in rehab to either buy drugs or leave all together. 

While reading over what has happened since I have left….its been absolute madness. Over the last 3 weeks close to 30% of the clients have used drugs, drank or left before their time was complete. While those numbers are not really that surprising, the fact they have occurred while they are still in treatment is shocking.

If I ever needed a reminder of how sinister and manipulative satan is…I got the message loud and clear. Almost every single guy who messed up…was on the Christian track. There is no end to what the master of lies and deceit will do to attack those who are looking for Christ as their source o strength,

This leads me to wonder…what is it that these men are doing wrong? Is it a lack of will power? Are they praying daily? What is the missing link that separates them from what I have done? For a while I was even questioning my core values of praying daily, reading the Bible daily and helping others to remain sober.

Through all the insanity one of the guys who recently relapsed pulled me on the side to talk. When I shared my core beliefs he agreed with me. He said that even though he tried to do all three…one was always missing. Even more telling was when he said he’s never asked God to remove the desire. It reminded me that is the one things I did do…I turned my will over to God. I asked for His healing and blessing.