The young man that I have been sponsoring the longest has relapsed. There is so much to write about his demise but I dont want to focus on the negative.  Where can a positive through all of this be found?

I had based everything about my ministry on how I worked with him. My perspective was that if my 1st sponsee stayed sober than I can help thousands. Andrew was my star pupil. To say that I am angry, hurt and disappointed only begins to explain how I feel.

What I have to accept is that I will never be the one to keep someone sober. Providing the tools needed to live a joyful life is what I am called to do. It is the personal relationship with Christ that will keep people on the straight and narrow. It has re-affirmed my belief that its through prayer, reading the Bible and being a servant that enables me to remain clean.

Every single day I have a choice, live life to the fullest or go back down the road to death. Sadly Andrew has chosen to live a lifestyle that will eventually kill him. It breaks my heart because he was doing so well. Yet he neglected all three things that brought his personal relationship with Christ which allowed him to live life without drugs.

This entry has been in the making for about a month. It is hard to share this particular entry but with recent developments with this young man I have to put this out for others to read. I just found out today that Andrew has gone from a heroin addict to someone using crystal meth. He is no longer in a sober living home and has decided he cant stay sober.

Please be in prayer for Andrew, his wife, family and unborn son. I love this guy like he is my little brother. I wish that I could take out my soul and give him the hope that God has blessed me with. Needless to say that is not possible. Andrew if you are reading this…. call me back and dont be ashamed. I still love you just as much as I ever have and so does Jesus.