This time tomorrow I will be on a flight back to California for a few weeks. I’ll be speaking, volunteering, watching a sober living home and hopefully getting my book published. None of this would have even been possible a few years ago. No one would have trusted me with anything.

The dramatic transformation that has occurred is a direct result of sobriety. At the same time it has taken exactly that, time. For the first year of my recovery all I did was focus on staying sober for just one day. With every passing day, dealing with life’s troubles got a little easier.

I use the phrase “personal relationship with Christ” often. Ok, not often more like every other entry. What does exactly mean? I dont know if I can put it into words but I’m going to try. I’ve shared that its reading the Bible, praying and being a servant. However it goes a lot deeper than that.

When I was a drunk drug addict, I was always searching for something. There was a void in my life that could never be filled. Today that is no longer the case. I am content, satisfied and have a joy that is priceless. What I was looking for all those years  was something that only God could fill.

My strength, peace and wisdom is from my higher power, a loving and caring Father who sent His son to die on the cross for all the evil that I once did. The comfort knowing, understanding and accepting that I am loved unconditionally is what I really mean about having a “personal relationship with Christ.”