Each of you should look not only to your own interest, but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who being in the very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. (Philippians 2:4-7)

With the upcoming trip that I am going on, many of friends and even my family commented that it shows character that I’ll be going to help someone during my birthday and Christmas. Honestly I really didn’t think about it until after I agreed to go. When I had sometime to look at the big picture…part of me thought “dang, Im going to miss my birthday AND Christmas, plus Marissa and Shelby are coming home and I wont be able to see them.”

Late this afternoon I was feeling anxious, the uneasy feeling of butterflies rumbled in my stomach. It was the first time in years that I felt that way. On top of feeling sorry for myself, asking people to donate bothered me. One was “what if no one feels led to help (which was stupid, so many of you have been gracious in giving above and beyond) the second was the fear of expectations.

My solution was to open the Bible and read. It took a few chapters to come across this verse but in the end….exactly what I needed to read. “ made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant”…this is what made the light switch turn on. As a recovering alcoholic my nature is to be selfish, self-centered, egotistical and a punk. However if I strive to be Christ-like…being a servant is key.