We live by faith, not by sight. (2 Corinthians 5:7)

I have been offered a position at theeffect which is a recovery based church here in California. I will be able to run my non-profit status through them which allow me to receive donations that are a tax write-off. There is also Sanctuary Sober Living Home that would help provide a place to live and a small salary. Both offers are awesome yet I really dont know if it could provide enough financially. The fact that they are even willing to help me financially is a huge blessing.

At the same time there is Hawaii where a need of a Christ based recovery program is totally needed. Yet…no one is willing to pay me. Honestly its frustrating that “churches” say that my services are so valuable however there is no money. Seriously its not like im asking for a six figure salary, heck they haven’t even offered $500 a month. They want me to do all these things for members but dont see the validity in having it as a ministry. Lame.

Trust me there are pro’s and con’s for both places. Even though Hawaii has zero opportunity to make a living in the recovery field, I have my family and the ability to earn some money while continuing to help my fellow addict. California…the chance to be of service on a daily basis is a certainty. The ability to utilize my talents is maximized the most however the financial stability is no where close to what Hawaii.

This isn’t a bitch session its so I can share about what I am learning about faith. Live in California with the opportunity to do what I really wanted to start in Hawaii while not having a certainty that I will have enough money to live. On the flip side I can live comfortably back home with my family yet not have an avenue to do things in the recovery field.

I’ve come to accept that either of my choices is a big step in faith. What I can see is closed doors and no way to financially make it. However I know that if I walk with my eye’s fixed on Christ…all my needs will be meet.