Anxiety attack….hadnt had one in over 6  years. It sucks and is coming at the worse time possible. Not like there is ever a good time to have one but the debilitating feeling that it brings is something that I wouldn’t wish upon my worse enemy. Heart pounding, fist clenching, feeling like I could not breath and a sense of losing control. Should have realized that something was wrong when I was dizzy for no reason on Sat but I can be stubborn.

Even today I could not focus on anything. My mind was racing on absurd scenarios when the only thing that is real….I need to get my shit together asap. I got homework, the sober homes, responsibility for my job, etc. The only possible solution is prayer. Someone said that if the stress level was gonna be like this forever they would be concerned. The fact that its only for 3 weeks….i can handle this. I have to.

My solution today was two workouts, prayer, devotionals and taking a step away from everything. If there is anything that I need more than anything right now…prayer, tons of it.