Huge leap of faith. Ive shared about this recently but leaving a salaried job for something that at the moment has 2 clients signed up with a launch date 3 weeks away could cause me to have slight anxiety. Im not anxious in the least. Oh there are moments that I look at everything and think “what am I doing?” but overall there is a peace about everything.

I know what chaos is about and this next step while stressful is not chaotic in the least. Ive been working on getting everything set up for over 80 hours in 7 days. Crazy part is that ive rarely been alone. With up to 6 others helping, the volunteered man hours is probably over 400 hrs. Even at minimum wage, no way I could afford that. Every day im reminded of how blessed I am to have this opportunity and the support has ben phenomenal. I keep thinking of the movie Field Of Dreams that the famous line “If you build it, they will come.”

Since the wheels started to be put into motion a little over 2 months ago I thought that this was all about me helping others grow closer to God. I mean the foundation of the life coaching is a sold foundation with Christ. What ive seen happen is that its my walk that is getting stronger by the day. The last few months working at the sober living sapped every last bit of energy from me. My prayer life was pathetic, reading the Bible had suffered and being a servant was more like a job. Wasn’t doing it out of want but in a way a burden.

Now…ive gotten back into reading a Proverb a day (everyday and sometimes re-reading it more than once) on top of my devotionals and seeking Truth through the Word. My prayer life isn’t done because I felt that I had to but because I want to. Being of service isn’t even something I think about, just happens. The end result is areas that I had been weak at…not so much. While the occasional outburst of saying something stupid happens, hardly. The ability to find peace in the midst of high stress has returned.

One of my guys keeps telling me “You’re back to how you were when I first met you. It’s a welcome sight.” The crazy thing is that I know its true. I feel it. The love for others has returned, offering my experience, strength and hope is back.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

For the last few months before I started this new venture, while I thought I was trusting God…I was really trying to exert my will. In the end I was sick: emotionally, spiritually and physically. The final straw was the sinus/tooth infection that basically left me bedridden. Something had to change and it did. I started to ask God what He wanted me do. Actually I never stopped praying that its just I stopped trusting Him in certain areas and tried to take control. When youre flat on your back wondering where how I could have taken such poor care of myself…epiphanies tend to happen.

The problem wasn’t that I wasn’t seeking His will, it was not resting in Him with all things. I didn’t know how id afford to pay rent without a job, how I could set up my dream, who would support my vision, where I could find a location to meet my needs, etc. etc. etc. When I just basically said “I give up God, whatever you want…” All those things I was anxious about got taken care of. Oh I put a lot of work, thought, effort and accepting help from amazing people (character defect was accepting help. I can be stubborn) but ultimately its Gods hand of blessing that is at work.

If there was any lingering doubt that this might actually be successful was erased earlier today. One of the boys who has been helping me out asked if Id be willing to work with his cousin. He had told his aunt that she could send her son to a rehab where the basics treatment could happen or she could have him do my life coaching. When she asked what the difference was….“Yes, working with Jon will be about 20 thousand dollars cheaper but if you want your son to have a solid foundation in a walk with God…there is no comparison.” Long as God is the focus and its not about people, places or things….anything is possible.