In the last month, two people that I can honestly say I love…going through things that years ago I would have asked “Why God?” Instead I’ve been asking “What the heck are you trying to teach me God?” I may not like the answer but im being reminded that acceptance of all things is what will bring me peace. The learning experience has been difficult but resting and relying upon God for wisdom and peace is more than enough.

While my life is going pretty darn well, they’ve had things happen where im not able to do anything. Considering my job is getting paid to help others ….being stuck on the sidelines, hurts. One didn’t want any help, and the other has to do this on her own. Once again the whole let go and let God saying is all that’s kept me sane.

Im reminded of something a mentor once told me. “Youre not the messiah, let God do His thing and just trust in Him.” Its not easy but it so true. There really isn’t anything that I can physically do to make the situations any better. I can be available to listen or be a shoulder to cry on but aside from that its not in my place to do more.

One of the things that has blossomed from recent events is that im spending even more time in the Word and in prayer. The verses that have assisted during this trying time….

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear (1 John 4:18)

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. (Romans 12:12)

My prayer life has also been transformed. I may not have all the details but in both instances, its not about me fixing things or even being back in the picture rather a prayer of blessing for them. Not gonna lie, it can sometimes be hard but deep down I just want both of them to be healthy, happy and blessed. Anytime that I want to call and ask how things are…I pray. Anytime that I get anxious about the situations….I pray. Anytime that my mind is spinning like a top on steroids…I pray. What ive found is that through these rough times my spiritual life has been renewed more than ever, for that im very grateful.