Im not the holier than thou Bible thumper, that is often associated with being a Religion major. Swear words come out when im training my crew, don’t really preach to my non-Christian friends and rarely if ever quote scripture after scripture to make a point. Its not me, never have been and never will be. What I have seen over all the years im alive…those that do what I don’t, may have all the Bible knowledge in the world but often times don’t have a clue how to relate to the ones who need Jesus the most….those still lost in a world of drugs and alcohol.
Archive for the ‘Random Thoughts’ Category
February20
Why I Sit Through 4 Hour Classes
February18
Its Worth It
The long hours, sacrifices and hard work could never be put into dollar signs. No one could pay me enough to walk away from what im doing at theOasis. I love what I do. Between the one-on-one’s, personal training clients, friends who come down just to hang out and the random newcomer who gets to see that sobriety can be fulfilling, I can go home at peace. Every once in a while im given a reminder that there is a reason why im in this position. I had given one of my guys an assignment, who do you look up to and why? With excitement in his face he said…“You”
February15
Tupac + Big Book + Paul = Diverse Entry.
“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened…or you can just leave the pieces on the floor an move on.” ~Tupac
February14
Love This
Dear One,
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively, but I say “No.”
February13
Souza Gym Lessons
“Your mind fails before your body does.” ~Souza Gym
It doesn’t matter how physically strong someone is when they walk into my gym. If they have a weak mind and cannot cope with pain…they wont last long working out with me. Gleaning information, coaching cues, programing and an insane work ethic from those that trained me, what I put those who workout with me through could be considered torture. Oh, I break them in slowly but after a few months of WODs with me, they’ll be able to walk into any CF and hold their own.
February9
There Is Always Hope.
There are 221 people on my current prayer list. As I counted them, in an amazing way I can remember each of them. Blew me away. When the list came out in 2008, there were probably only 30 or so on it. Crazy thing is that im missing names. Whoever is on the list is also in my phone book, that’s how I could confirm things. This doesn’t include the men and women that ive met at meetings or when I spoke at the rehab center.
February8
Standing Firm
You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. (Matthew 5:13)
February7
Patiently Waiting
“Our work is to lay our petitions before the Lord, and in childlike simplicity to pour out our hearts before Him, saying, “I do not deserve that You should hear me and answer my requests, but for the sake of my precious Lord Jesus; for His sake, answer my prayer. And give me grace to wait patiently until it pleases You to grant my petition. For I believe You will do it in Your own time and way.”” ~George Muller
February5
Living In A Fishbowl
I can be extremely private. How the heck can that be when I have a blog that has 900+ entries? That’s is, this is probably the one place that I get stuff out. When it comes to spending time with people, not so much. When it comes to sharing my experience, strength & hope with my fellow alcoholic, its very easy. Sharing about feelings or emotions about what’s currently going on…not so much.
February4
Past vs. Present.
Its rare I ever go this in-depth about my past. Over the last 915 entries im pretty sure less than 10 have anywhere close to this much info about what life used to be about. So why am I doing it today? One reason is there are some sober people in my community that seem to be drawn to the “lifestyle”. Kinda like they wanna play on the edge. Next time one of them asks me about it, just gonna forward them this entry. The second reason is someone recently said “How can you be an addict? You stay sober without meetings. No way that happens. Your addiction must not have been that bad.” Once again, next time I have that put in front of me…read this entry.
There was a time when fear controlled my life. During the later stages of my addiction it wasn’t fun anymore. The lifestyle had consumed me, who I appeared on the outside was happy…the few who really knew me also understood that it was a lie. How could someone who seemingly had everything the lifestyle had to offer not be happy?
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