The long hours, sacrifices and hard work could never be put into dollar signs. No one could pay me enough to walk away from what im doing at theOasis. I love what I do. Between the one-on-one’s, personal training clients, friends who come down just to hang out and the random newcomer who gets to see that sobriety can be fulfilling, I can go home at peace. Every once in a while im given a reminder that there is a reason why im in this position. I had given one of my guys an assignment, who do you look up to and why? With excitement in his face he said…“You”
Archive for the ‘Sobriety Hints’ Category
February18
Its Worth It
February15
Tupac + Big Book + Paul = Diverse Entry.
“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened…or you can just leave the pieces on the floor an move on.” ~Tupac
February13
Souza Gym Lessons
“Your mind fails before your body does.” ~Souza Gym
It doesn’t matter how physically strong someone is when they walk into my gym. If they have a weak mind and cannot cope with pain…they wont last long working out with me. Gleaning information, coaching cues, programing and an insane work ethic from those that trained me, what I put those who workout with me through could be considered torture. Oh, I break them in slowly but after a few months of WODs with me, they’ll be able to walk into any CF and hold their own.
February8
Standing Firm
You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. (Matthew 5:13)
February7
Patiently Waiting
“Our work is to lay our petitions before the Lord, and in childlike simplicity to pour out our hearts before Him, saying, “I do not deserve that You should hear me and answer my requests, but for the sake of my precious Lord Jesus; for His sake, answer my prayer. And give me grace to wait patiently until it pleases You to grant my petition. For I believe You will do it in Your own time and way.”” ~George Muller
February5
Living In A Fishbowl
I can be extremely private. How the heck can that be when I have a blog that has 900+ entries? That’s is, this is probably the one place that I get stuff out. When it comes to spending time with people, not so much. When it comes to sharing my experience, strength & hope with my fellow alcoholic, its very easy. Sharing about feelings or emotions about what’s currently going on…not so much.
February4
Past vs. Present.
Its rare I ever go this in-depth about my past. Over the last 915 entries im pretty sure less than 10 have anywhere close to this much info about what life used to be about. So why am I doing it today? One reason is there are some sober people in my community that seem to be drawn to the “lifestyle”. Kinda like they wanna play on the edge. Next time one of them asks me about it, just gonna forward them this entry. The second reason is someone recently said “How can you be an addict? You stay sober without meetings. No way that happens. Your addiction must not have been that bad.” Once again, next time I have that put in front of me…read this entry.
There was a time when fear controlled my life. During the later stages of my addiction it wasn’t fun anymore. The lifestyle had consumed me, who I appeared on the outside was happy…the few who really knew me also understood that it was a lie. How could someone who seemingly had everything the lifestyle had to offer not be happy?
February3
The Journey Is The Reward
“The journey is the reward.” ~Unknown
There has been a lot of introspection the last 48 hours. Digging deep and facing issues that were buried. The last couple entries dealt with two women that since I got sober have played a huge role in my life. Both have seen sides of me that no other person has experienced. To 99% of those who know me they never see the anger, rage or insecurities. What I did realize the last 48 hours…im getting better at it.
February2
Exactly What I Needed.
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” (Lamentations 3:22-24)
After yesterdays blog I had a talk with one of my guys and how hard it is to pray for those that have caused hurt. Even as I was talking with him, I started to cry. The pain is still raw, seeing her yesterday was hard and not saying anything about it was harder. At the Bible Study last night I shared that the Fruit of the Spirit that I was struggling with the most was….faithfulness. I have faith in God for my sobriety but having faith that he has a woman who loves me is totally lacking.
January30
Growing Closer To God
As the days grow closer to my trip home, the more appreciation there is for my friends in Hawaii. Over the last 12 months here in California my circle of close friends, those that I can confide in with anything, people that I can do fun/non-work related time with has shrunk. Looking at my text messages, FB and emails the ones I keep in touch with the most are 2500 miles away. This is in no way an entry of complaining but one of realization of knowing where my loyalties are at.
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